Feb 11, 2012

No Longer Mine

I wrote this when I was 14 and dug it up again today. I thought you might enjoy the musings of my younger self.

No longer mine


What does it mean to say I love you?

Explosive. Swelled heart and love begins to open up the seams that held it closed; that held the sleeping treasure… now conscious and alive. Uncontainable yet caught within the small confines of my heart. It is irrepressible, begging to be let out, but still in my feeble hands.

Humbled. I am not enough. I lost a piece of me that only you can find. These words are more powerful than me … ‘I love you’. Supremacy surrendered, I am yours.

Reserved. You own a piece inside my heart. Prime real estate surrounded by caution tape. The deal signed. Preserved for one. Unmarred by footsteps in the ground. Your sign is carved in stone. Can’t be unwritten. The mark is there forever for better or worse.

Suicide. My identity no longer who I am, but tangled up with you; a whole new creature. Do two deaths make life… abundantly? Yet from winter’s decay, spring flowers bloom and grow.

Promise. A debt of adoration, a commitment made to keep day in, day out. Sunrise to Sunset. Rainbow or Raincloud. Will thirsty come and find the well cracked and dry? But storms will pass and leave world crisp and new. Let not the promise fail, instead be cleansed.

Infinity. No termination in this life. And when death anew is at our doors, the end is the beginning. The death is life again.

Feb 10, 2012

January 6, 2012

Favorite line from this video, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTFZyl7hfBw
Warning: there is some profanity, but it is hilarious.

Feb 8, 2012

Definitely the Glasses, part 1

You'll of course remember the last journal entry I posted, a watercolor sketch of a girl in glasses.

Well, I have to confess--I have a fetish with those glasses. I've been trying to save people the discomfort of seeing me in my own ridiculous lensless frames, but if ever I find a legitimate pair of nonprescription glasses, you'll be seeing me in them, rest assured!

I now have a running collection of images and media featuring this "accessory," if you will, and I will be sharing them with you in phases as they come.

I can't trace this eclectic collection back to its original source, but I found it through this blog: http://gatherlove.tumblr.com/post/17220690837/giu-cy-oldschool-babe

Gap Model: http://www.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=76889&vid=1&pid=871057
The most remarkable thing about this picture, is that the model (I think) looks exactly like me! How many pictures of strangers make you double take, thinking "is that me??"

Love the lace and boots in this outfit from Bonlook: http://lookbook.nu/look/2163117-On-the-Rooftop

Finally, for today, is this instagram from Sucre Diaries! http://sucrediaries.blogspot.com/2012/02/sucres-first-show.html
Sucre is the music child of Stacy King of Eisley, her husband Darren King of MuteMath, and Jeremy Larson an independent musician and producer. This photo was taken of her with a fan (wearing the glasses!) at their very first live show in LA.

Let me know if you happen to have favorite images of clear lens glasses.

Jan 28, 2012

January 14, 2012

On the 13th of January, I hosted a dance in our barn. It was a delightful and magical night full of new friends, old friends, dancing, singing, and laughing. Must do it again!

Jan 26, 2012

Janurary 1, 2012

My thoughts on the first of the year:

January 25, 2012

It's my birthday, I can {*insert} if I want to!

*Wear Stilettos
*Eat Cheesecake
*Buy Clothes
*Get a Diamond ring
*Sing at the top of my lungs

Jan 24, 2012

November 21, 2011

"Part of how I keep track of time is how many rows of knitting I've done since the last time I counted."