I spend
a lot of time with myself
trying to be my friend,
sometimes listening to my apologies
often to my excuses,
occasionally to my good sense.
I know me well, but
- now and then -
find me an interesting stranger!
(Helen Harrington)
1 day ago
Apr 13, 2009
Mar 6, 2009
Remember When?
My Friend,
Remember when we were little and we would dress up in everything we could find? Ballerina skirts and cowboy vest were compatible and cute when you put on your silly child smile. The hair in our faces didn’t matter when the photographs were shot, cause we were young and free.
Remember the channels and castles, bridges and lakes we made in your sandbox? Digging in the damp sand we would connect and intersect our tunnels until it was a maze of paths. We would bring the garden hose and send the current into the waterways; transforming our kingdom into a sandy swamp. Wading through it, our legs were coated, but we didn’t mind. We sprayed them with the cooling water and felt refreshed.
Think of all the trees that have our footprints there… the walnut limbs above the orange tree, the orange tree above the fence; the tree house in our backyard shade, where we would hide away. Remember that day you buried her in the pile of yellow leaves? I was looking down from the branches and we all laughed when she emerged.
Remember our days in the park so long ago, jumping off the wall like we could fly? It was our initiation to the fairy world (which we designed). Running through the grassy field and striving to earn our wings… practicing our magic skills… learning basic fairy things.
Remember our efforts to turn your bunk bed into a dolly home? One sleeping space cannot become three living rooms, but we didn’t know… and so we tried again. We carefully laid our dolls to sleep and sat on the floor instead to keep from knocking down the walls.
Remember the utter darkness of the basement when we were hidden there? We became the Jewish fugitives dreading the heavy Nazi footsteps overhead. Huddled beneath the staircase, our frantic whispers hushed each other up. But they would change to laughs when some one lit the room and we were faced with the cardboard boxes and cluttered storage space. We knew that the footsteps were only our mothers preparing lunch, their voices droned (discussing grown up things).
Remember birthdays on the beach? We carried the picnic lunch to the shore and we girls would dance with the water. Screaming at the cold, but plunging in all the same. We moved with the undulating waves; floating and somersaulting in their midst. Lunch was not harmed by the crunchy bits of sand; nor were our saturated bathing-suits… celebration and soda pop were our only cares.
Remember my mommy’s giant room where we would play hide and seek? Would you hide on the lofty shelves of the closet, or behind the hanging clothes? Or the time you slid behind the many pillows on the bed… I never would have found you. I waited for an eternity inside the blanket chest, suppressing giggles at my success. And I adjusted the shelves in the bathroom cabinet so I could hide with the lotion and shampoo. There was always room underneath the bed or even the baby crib for last minute spots… and then our time would slip away and you would leave for home.
Remember when we were little and we would dress up in everything we could find? Ballerina skirts and cowboy vest were compatible and cute when you put on your silly child smile. The hair in our faces didn’t matter when the photographs were shot, cause we were young and free.
Remember the channels and castles, bridges and lakes we made in your sandbox? Digging in the damp sand we would connect and intersect our tunnels until it was a maze of paths. We would bring the garden hose and send the current into the waterways; transforming our kingdom into a sandy swamp. Wading through it, our legs were coated, but we didn’t mind. We sprayed them with the cooling water and felt refreshed.
Think of all the trees that have our footprints there… the walnut limbs above the orange tree, the orange tree above the fence; the tree house in our backyard shade, where we would hide away. Remember that day you buried her in the pile of yellow leaves? I was looking down from the branches and we all laughed when she emerged.
Remember our days in the park so long ago, jumping off the wall like we could fly? It was our initiation to the fairy world (which we designed). Running through the grassy field and striving to earn our wings… practicing our magic skills… learning basic fairy things.
Remember our efforts to turn your bunk bed into a dolly home? One sleeping space cannot become three living rooms, but we didn’t know… and so we tried again. We carefully laid our dolls to sleep and sat on the floor instead to keep from knocking down the walls.
Remember the utter darkness of the basement when we were hidden there? We became the Jewish fugitives dreading the heavy Nazi footsteps overhead. Huddled beneath the staircase, our frantic whispers hushed each other up. But they would change to laughs when some one lit the room and we were faced with the cardboard boxes and cluttered storage space. We knew that the footsteps were only our mothers preparing lunch, their voices droned (discussing grown up things).
Remember birthdays on the beach? We carried the picnic lunch to the shore and we girls would dance with the water. Screaming at the cold, but plunging in all the same. We moved with the undulating waves; floating and somersaulting in their midst. Lunch was not harmed by the crunchy bits of sand; nor were our saturated bathing-suits… celebration and soda pop were our only cares.
Remember my mommy’s giant room where we would play hide and seek? Would you hide on the lofty shelves of the closet, or behind the hanging clothes? Or the time you slid behind the many pillows on the bed… I never would have found you. I waited for an eternity inside the blanket chest, suppressing giggles at my success. And I adjusted the shelves in the bathroom cabinet so I could hide with the lotion and shampoo. There was always room underneath the bed or even the baby crib for last minute spots… and then our time would slip away and you would leave for home.
When we were simply children…
Do you remember that?
(Dedicated to Ginny and Hannah)
Do you remember that?
(Dedicated to Ginny and Hannah)
Mar 4, 2009
The Way of the World
Observe the bubble in the quiet inlet of the waterway,
Wishing to be thrust into the turbulent stream.
She circles closer; concentric rings like a ladder to the unknown.
Soon the current sucks her into its midst and begins to laugh.
The caressing waves soon hush her troubled scream,
Her fears allayed as she is rocked in a floating cradle home.
Then rapidly the soothing song is shattered by a rippling snarl,
The mystery becomes her only memory,
And all is lost.
Her gentle globe is thrown over the precipice,
Engulfed, it disappears.
Her numb identity is jaded as it mingles with
The Stream.
Wishing to be thrust into the turbulent stream.
She circles closer; concentric rings like a ladder to the unknown.
Soon the current sucks her into its midst and begins to laugh.
The caressing waves soon hush her troubled scream,
Her fears allayed as she is rocked in a floating cradle home.
Then rapidly the soothing song is shattered by a rippling snarl,
The mystery becomes her only memory,
And all is lost.
Her gentle globe is thrown over the precipice,
Engulfed, it disappears.
Her numb identity is jaded as it mingles with
The Stream.
Feb 25, 2009
Things I have done
I got this from a facebook friend. I liked it so i decided to post in on my blog! =)
Things you have done during your lifetime:
( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school (seeing as I am at home anyway, its not that amazing...)
( ) Watched someone die
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been to Florida
(x) Been to Hawaii
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Been on a helicopter
(x) Been lost
(x) Gone to Washington, DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
( ) Swam with stingrays (my friend totally has!!! she got stung o.O)
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with coins only (I think I have... I know my brother has...)
( ) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
( ) Made prank phone calls
( ) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sunrise with someone
(x) Blown bubbles
(x) Gone ice-skating
(x) Gone to the movies
( ) Been deep sea fishing
(x) Driven across the United States (well not all the way. to Wyoming and back.)
( ) Been in a hot air balloon
( ) Been sky diving
( ) Gone snowmobiling
( ) Lived in more than one country
(x) Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
(x) Seen a falling star and made a wish
(x) Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
(x) Seen the Statue of Liberty
( ) Gone to the top of Seattle Space Needle
(x) Been on a cruise (kinda? i went for a day cruise in Hawaii)
(x) Traveled by train
( ) Traveled by motorcycle
(x) Been horse back riding
( ) Ridden on a San Francisco Cable Car (I can't believe i haven't done this...)
(x) Been to Disneyland
( ) Been in a rain forest
(x) Seen whales in the ocean
( ) Been to Niagara Falls
( ) Ridden on an elephant
( ) Swam with dolphins
(x) Attended an opera (Oh yeah! I went with Ginny
( ) Been to the Olympics
( ) Walked on the Great Wall of China
( ) Saw and heard a glacier calf
( ) Been spinnaker flying
(x) Been water-skiing
(x) Been snow-skiing
( ) Been to Westminster Abbey
( ) Been to the Louvre
( ) Swam in the Mediterranean
( ) Been to a Major League Baseball game
(x) Been to a National Football League game (maybe it was college? idk =P)
( ) Been in a submarine
( ) Driven through a blizzard
Things you have done during your lifetime:
( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school (seeing as I am at home anyway, its not that amazing...)
( ) Watched someone die
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been to Florida
(x) Been to Hawaii
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Been on a helicopter
(x) Been lost
(x) Gone to Washington, DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
( ) Swam with stingrays (my friend totally has!!! she got stung o.O)
(x) Cried yourself to sleep
(x) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with coins only (I think I have... I know my brother has...)
( ) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
( ) Made prank phone calls
( ) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sunrise with someone
(x) Blown bubbles
(x) Gone ice-skating
(x) Gone to the movies
( ) Been deep sea fishing
(x) Driven across the United States (well not all the way. to Wyoming and back.)
( ) Been in a hot air balloon
( ) Been sky diving
( ) Gone snowmobiling
( ) Lived in more than one country
(x) Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
(x) Seen a falling star and made a wish
(x) Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
(x) Seen the Statue of Liberty
( ) Gone to the top of Seattle Space Needle
(x) Been on a cruise (kinda? i went for a day cruise in Hawaii)
(x) Traveled by train
( ) Traveled by motorcycle
(x) Been horse back riding
( ) Ridden on a San Francisco Cable Car (I can't believe i haven't done this...)
(x) Been to Disneyland
( ) Been in a rain forest
(x) Seen whales in the ocean
( ) Been to Niagara Falls
( ) Ridden on an elephant
( ) Swam with dolphins
(x) Attended an opera (Oh yeah! I went with Ginny
( ) Been to the Olympics
( ) Walked on the Great Wall of China
( ) Saw and heard a glacier calf
( ) Been spinnaker flying
(x) Been water-skiing
(x) Been snow-skiing
( ) Been to Westminster Abbey
( ) Been to the Louvre
( ) Swam in the Mediterranean
( ) Been to a Major League Baseball game
(x) Been to a National Football League game (maybe it was college? idk =P)
( ) Been in a submarine
( ) Driven through a blizzard
Feb 20, 2009
Locomotive - Shiloh Kauk
Verse 1
Locomotive, in the distance
When did you begin?
Never knowing when you passed me by…
Looking after, your commotion
Out of butterfly eyes
Dragging with you, all the moments I try to find…
Pre Chorus
Disposable time,
Can’t be reused
I try to rewind
But the imagery won’t move
Chorus
Slip by
Why don’t you just, leave me behind?
I try…
But the moment’s so, so hard to find.
Verse 2
Eager faces, in the windows,
Adjust the horizon line
Carried onward by the current of time…
Start to wonder what my fate is
Can I make it this time?
Can I take this ordinary life, to somewhere divine?
Bridge
I let another train arrive and leave
My forgetfulness will never ease
Why can’t oblivion surrender me
And let the locomotive sweep me off my feet?
.
Feb 16, 2009
Another Giveaway
I love Grosgrain. She gives stuff away She always makes me want to sew. =)
I don't win things, but I still like to try. That's why this is posting right now.
The Conservatory Overcoat GIVEAWAY!!!!
I don't win things, but I still like to try. That's why this is posting right now.
The Conservatory Overcoat GIVEAWAY!!!!
Jan 29, 2009
So I'm 15...
Really? I don't think one person has guessed my age without knowing it. Back in December when my friend turned 16, her father said to me, "So you're 16 already..?" "ha, no... just 14. =P" says I.
Sometimes I like to think, "...maybe everyone else is right... maybe my parents thought I was 1 when I was 2 and I've lived like that ever since." (But then of course I know that is a ridiculous idea, and that God just has a great sense of humor in giving me such tall genes).
A different friend said, "Happy Bday. Did you get a car?" "Ha thanks. um, not yet... next year maybe?" haha. (He obviously doesn't know me all that well yet). Hopefully I will be able to license myself by my next birthday... but certainly not now.
These pictures were taken during a lunch in Los Gatos on my birthday. =)
Jan 22, 2009
The Lunch Date Blouse GIVEAWAY!!!!
The Lunch Date Blouse GIVEAWAY!!!!
This shirt/jacket thing is ~so~ cool. wow i wish i could make my own...
This shirt/jacket thing is ~so~ cool. wow i wish i could make my own...
Jan 6, 2009
Matthew 6:3-4
But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.I love this verse. It's easy for me to begin to love people with the motive of becoming their favorite, or being seen as a 'good girl' by others. But at the heart i do true want to bless others, and so i need to learn to not let my left hand know what my right hand is doing. That way he can't whisper to my pride.
Jan 2, 2009
Meh.
So yes it is 4:30 AM and my brother are both sick. So we are up. At least i have someone to commiserate with. Ugh i hate sick.
I have had 5 different songs running through my head for about 15 hours now, so i had to turn them on. It was crazy haha, i would sing a line from one song and then i would go straight into a new song... Anyway, just a quick update.
I have had 5 different songs running through my head for about 15 hours now, so i had to turn them on. It was crazy haha, i would sing a line from one song and then i would go straight into a new song... Anyway, just a quick update.
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